Over the past 3 years, I have gained 35 pounds. For a while when I arrived in LA, my weight was stable but then it began to creep up and over the past year I have gained 15 pounds. I am a stress eater, so the weight gain means that I am stressed. To be a good leader, I need to address the stressors. I need to think about what exactly is causing me stress and then work on remediating either my response to the stressors or the stressors themselves.
My questions is why does it have to be rough and tumble? Why do I feel that it is rough and tumble now? Why do I spend a large part of my day in fear that the other shoe will drop? Why do I feel, that I need to sedate myself at the end of the day with cheese and pizza sauce? This isn't who I want to be. So it is time to turn the ship--now luxury size--and establish a course that will lead me to a better place.
For a while now, I have been tossing around pros and cons of where I am right now. But the pros are not going to help, if I am at the core not satisfied. Why should I settle for safe and secure when it is dismantling me piece by piece? Here are my assets, I am adventurous, I am willing to take the bull by the horns, I am able to see my faults and I am willing to work on improving them. It is up to me to find the place where I can grow. It is up to me prepare myself to be in that place. So from this day forward, I will work toward that goal. I will explore all the different facets of what makes me in order to become a much better me. Get ready world, I am here. This was me during my first year in grad school.
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